Thanksgiving weekend.
I am blessed that I had Casey here for a nice long span. He was just back from a pretty tough deployment. He made some new decisions and it will keep him here in the states. For this, I am thankful. We had a great visit.
I cannot explain what I feel. The pain is all there and so close. Losing a child has to be the worst thing on earth. My heart feels so broken. I just shake my head and cry when I try to convey my feelings to someone. I know this pain will always be there. I do not see how it ever can go away.
Just today, I got an email from someone Cody contacted about a cancer song this man wrote and recorded. They said they used to follow Cody and wondered what had happened. They have a handwritten thank you note from him. That is how Cody was. He appreciated the littlest things. I always say that something comes over these kids when they get cancer. They notice things. They learn the value of a card or a note. They notice something about everyone to say to make them feel better. They appreciate life in a way like no other. I see it in everyone I meet that is affected by cancer.
I am putting together the 2nd fundraiser. It looks to be better than last year! I already have some great things donated and will have more. I was kinda in a low place and was not thinking much about it but when friends starting asking...I jumped to it. (Diane, I know you are reading this and will most likely respond. Please come. It will be Jan. 6. We have a cool band! Gary would love them. )
Thank you all for your continued support. xoxoxo
