NOVEMBER 26, 2015

It is my first Thanksgiving without my son.  They say the 'firsts' are the toughest.  Every day is tough.  I am home and I chose to be.  I got lots of invitations (Thank you, thank you and thank you!) but chose to be home.  I feel closer to Cody here and don't want to pretend to be ok today.  I need days for that too.  I FaceTime with Casey pretty much every day and that is the highlight of my day.  He is less than 3 weeks back to the states.  I know he has Cody watching over him.  I cannot wait for him to get here and we have some time together.  We need that more than anything.
I try not to read the blog from last year and it is so sad but I know what I was doing.  I miss my sons.
We had the Super Hero Day and it was sooooo amazing to see everyone supporting me, your foundation and keeping your memory close to heart.  The children in the schools may not have met you but they know all about you.
I visited a young girl last night (15) that has cancer.  I met her through CFK.  She is such a sweet girl.  I tried to tell her about Cody but did not want to scare her.  She is fighting again and is a breath of fresh air.  I took her some of Cody's Persevere shirts and I know he will now watch over her too.  Please add Farrah to your prayers.
I also met a family from HHH that has a little boy (3) fighting too.  It is so unfair.  I have not met their son yet but someday I will.  Please add Luke to your prayers too.
Enjoy your time with your family.  That is what it is all about.  Blessed to have all of you in my life…here's to a safe and rapid homecoming for Casey!!

Nov. 18, 2015

So it has been 11 long months without my son.  I am speechless.  There are no words.  I listened to my good friend Sue and she suggested to try to do something positive to happy on the 18th.  So we had the HHH First Annual Super Hero Day in honor of our hometown hero, Cody.  I was so touched and amazed at the district turnout.  I am so lucky to be a part of HHH.  I know Cody is proud too.
I miss him so very much and just cannot fathom how time just keeps going without him.  I get all the signs, but would give anything to have him back.  I am counting the days until Casey gets here.  I miss him too and pray for his safe return home.  I worry about his feelings and emotions too.  Cody is missed by so many.  Thank you, HHH for your support and compassion, thanks to my family for always being there and thanks to my dear friends that have  become my family here in NY.  I would not be able to get through this alone.  Love you all!!!

Nov. 5, 2015

This was the week from hell last year.  I think about it every second.  Time just keeps going and it is hard to wrap my head around all of this.  It does not go away and it does not get easier.  I guess you just learn to act better.  I am going to a CFK event tonight.  Another family will be welcomed but with the bad part being the cancer.  I can't.
Thinking about all the love and support we have had and continue to have…it is truly so touching and amazing.
I miss my son, with all that I have.