Feb. 27, 2015

Some days are harder than others..they are all hard but some are harder.
Cody was in my dream last night.  Love when that happens.  The message that came through was that he was hugging me, tightly and around my neck.  Big hugs..he was also a younger boy.  Love it anyway it comes through.  Miss you, my boy.

February 21, 2015

Home for a visit to FL.  I was so anxious about the trip and now it is over and so glad I am home.  I hated leaving the beautiful weather but wanted to get back here.  Got to spend some much needed time with my dad and stepmom and my brother and nephews.  Hung out with my amazing friends, Gregg and Tracy last night. Had a quick dinner with one of my aunts and uncle with my cousin and her family.  I stopped in really quick to see my friend, Donatella.  She lost her sweet boy two and a half years ago.  It all hurts. I spent a lot of time alone, just relaxing and I needed that. I know Cody was with me and I felt his presence and spirit several times.
It has been 2 months.  I cannot wrap my head around it when I think of Cody being gone and that he is not coming home.  Thank you to my amazing family and compassionate friends that offer love and support always.  Glad the doggies were with you, Moira.  That helped for sure.  Thank you.
Looking forward to seeing Casey in a few weeks.  He is coming here for a wedding.  I miss him.

February 14, 2015

Just read the post from last year…
I was very worried about my mom and about Cody.
KFC for Valentine's seemed so meaningless…what I wouldn't give to be doing that tonight…with Cody.
Glad Casey is here and spending time with his girlfriend.
Life changes in an instant…love on those that you have.  You never know when it is the last time…don't like saying that but it is life, unfortunately.  Crazy world and just doesn't seem like a good one these days.  I am thankful for those around me and for my family and friends.  That's what keeps me going.
One day closer, Cody…one day closer.
Enjoy the rest of the day…xoxoxo

February 8, 2014

Sunday-7 weeks and 3 days…I cannot believe it has  been this long and yet time just creeps along.
I do not know how life goes on, but it does.  I am getting cards and notes and letters from friends telling me great stories about Cody and how he touched their lives.  I love reading those.  Friends are still donating to foundations.  The Make a Wish lady that was here with Cody checked in and I had to tell her.  She is the sweetest lady. At 88, I was nervous to tell her.  A few days later, I get a card and she donated to Make a Wish in Cody's name.  So touched.  Every day.
I am seeing signs and symbols.  I know you are watching over me, Cody.  I hope you are there for your brother too.  I miss him too.
My heart continues to ache every single minute.  One day closer…..