It is my first Thanksgiving without my son. They say the 'firsts' are the toughest. Every day is tough. I am home and I chose to be. I got lots of invitations (Thank you, thank you and thank you!) but chose to be home. I feel closer to Cody here and don't want to pretend to be ok today. I need days for that too. I FaceTime with Casey pretty much every day and that is the highlight of my day. He is less than 3 weeks back to the states. I know he has Cody watching over him. I cannot wait for him to get here and we have some time together. We need that more than anything.
I try not to read the blog from last year and it is so sad but I know what I was doing. I miss my sons.
We had the Super Hero Day and it was sooooo amazing to see everyone supporting me, your foundation and keeping your memory close to heart. The children in the schools may not have met you but they know all about you.
I visited a young girl last night (15) that has cancer. I met her through CFK. She is such a sweet girl. I tried to tell her about Cody but did not want to scare her. She is fighting again and is a breath of fresh air. I took her some of Cody's Persevere shirts and I know he will now watch over her too. Please add Farrah to your prayers.
I also met a family from HHH that has a little boy (3) fighting too. It is so unfair. I have not met their son yet but someday I will. Please add Luke to your prayers too.
Enjoy your time with your family. That is what it is all about. Blessed to have all of you in my life…here's to a safe and rapid homecoming for Casey!!
You are absolutely right! Being home is a comfort. My friends were always asking if I went out but I could be sad out of the house, too. I think you are doing amazing things. I don't think I could visit a child with cancer and see that look of fear on parents' faces or transfer my sadness to the child. You are a good will ambassador, bringing your smile and your love of Cody to others. It is helping you heal in small increments, I believe. Enjoy your face time with Casey and your visit when he arrives. Sending hugs and love.
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