Journal From Cody's Mom

Friday, September 18, 2015

September 18, 2015

9 months…I really don't have any words…Just can't understand how this happens. I miss my son here with me. No words.

Tuesday, September 8, 2015

Another school year begins…and you are not here. I miss everything with you and everything about you. My hearts hurts. Yes, I get through each day but it is hard. I FaceTime with Casey and I see him wearing your shirts or an Islanders shirt and I know that is his way of being close to you. I sit in your room and I touch your urn, that is when I feel closest to you.
Missing you but I know you are there and you are watching over me. This I know…..Love you, Cody.

Sunday, August 30, 2015

August 30, 2015

I miss my son. He always helped me with back to school stuff. It is a new school year and he is not here. My heart hurts. I pray that Cody keeps a close watch over Casey through the upcoming months.
Thank you, Cody, for bringing some light into this dark world…I know you had something to do with all this.

Wednesday, August 19, 2015

August 18/19, 2015

Dear Cody,
I look at pictures, I see all of your things here, your dogs, your clothes, your shoes, your room and I look for you…I know I see signs, I hear you and I feel you. I know you are with me and I thank you for watching over me. I know I have you to thank for the good thing that is happening. I was at Corinne's yesterday with the kids and great friends and Corinne and I saw that huge butterfly…I know you were there. My heart continues to hurt and I am sure it always will..the tears flow every day.
8 months is so long. Other the other hand, I am so thankful no one forgets you. I see your pictures at other's houses. I see people wearing your shirts. I see your bracelets everywhere. Just on Monday, Coach Carcone called to tell me about the ribbon he is putting on the shirts in memory of you. So touching. I will be at the games to be there for you.
Please watch over your brother. I know he misses you.
I love you, Cody….xoxoxoxox
Mom