May 10, 2015

Mother's Day…I have one son that lives in Georgia and one son that is in heaven.  My heart hurts each time I think I might have to say this.
I miss them both.  Casey called this morning and then wrote something beautiful on Facebook.  We are all hurting for sure.  I am hoping he can get a weekend to come up.
My brother is coming in 2 weeks for his birthday.  I am looking forward to that.  I need to see him too.
I hope everyone enjoyed their day.  I chose to stay alone today.  Thank you for all the invites.  That truly means a lot to me.  Thank you for the flowers, cards, visits, phone calls, texts and fb shout outs.  I am so lucky to have all of you.
This past week my dryer caught on fire.  I was home and smelled the smoke.  I called 911 and got out safely.  I knew it had smoldered but was not sure it actually caught fire until it was moved out.My friend helped and got it out for me.  We found a burned $20 and a burned $1.  There's my 21 from my son and he loved playing 21.  He was definitely making sure I was safe.  The signs from Cody help but makes me miss him more, if that is possible.
Love you, Casey and Cody.  Thanks for allowing me to be your mom.  XOXOX

May 1, 2105

It was a tough week but Monday was beautiful.  We had a nice showing at Cody's birthday balloon launch.  I am happy about that and loved seeing everyone and their families.  Each and every child there are beauties.  So thankful to have all of you.  Thanks for your help and for remembering my son.  I miss him so much and cannot wait until we are reunited again.  Love you, Cody.
Tomorrow marks one year since my mom passed.  It is crazy how fast time goes by.  I know she went first so she could be there for Cody and to show him around.  I am glad they are together.  I miss you, mom but I know in my heart, you would not have been able to handle this so you went first.  Thanks for taking care of Cody. Love you, Mom.

April 27, 2015

Not sure how this all happens…no more birthdays here on earth.  We will send messages on balloons to my son today.  Happy Birthday in heaven, Cody..forever 21 here but today you would be 22.
Miss you and love you always.

April 26, 2015

Missing my son.  Tomorrow is Cody's birthday.  He would be 22.  We are a week apart and celebrated all week, just another part to us being so connected.
I miss my son.

April 20th, 2015

Tough week for sure…4 months feels like forever.  Guess this is normal.

April 8, 2015

The few days with Casey was good but we missed your presence.  He chose a picture of you to have and it is the same one I got made for a new necklace that I have not seen yet.  Our hearts are broken, crushed and full of pain.  I see it in Casey.  It is not right.  But…life goes on, somehow, some way.

April 2, 2015

Guess April is making me sad.  Understood.
Today I am going to see Casey for the weekend for Easter.  Cody should be with me.  I cannot wrap my head around the big picture.  Probably  never will.
Enjoy the time with your family.  It is all that matters.  XOXOXO