December 27, 2015

I miss my son.  We got through Christmas and I am so glad Casey is here. Somehow we get through.  I feel like I do not want to do the things we did with Cody and that is why I did not put a tree up.  I feel Casey's pain and I am trying to be strong for him.  He looks through Cody's things and he even played his drums yesterday.  He listened to the psychic reading I had that was recorded.  I really love having him here.  It feels like I have life back in my house.  Even with the three dogs here, it is just nice to see the light on in Cody's room.  We have been visiting friends and I am grateful for every one of them.  Tonight we are going to an Islanders game.  It is my first one since Cody has been gone.  Again, I do it for Casey.  I am glad, in a way, that is it not at the coliseum.  Lots of memories there and I think it would be hard to go. We are going to go see Josh Bailey after the game.  I framed a picture of he and Cody and will give it to him.  I see him wearing Cody's bracelet and it warms my heart.
Casey extended his trip to stay this week.  It is so nice to have him here.  He is seeing a new girl, one that I connected him to.  (I think that is why he is staying longer although I can think it is for me!)
Thank you all again, and always, for your continued love and support.  I am lucky to have all of you in my life.  

December 18, 2015

Not sure how a year goes by so quickly.  I re-live each second from the last year.  I know exactly where I was and what was happening.  Yesterday was a difficult and sad day but also filled with love from being surrounded by such great friends and family.  The calls, the visits, the texts, the FaceTime chats, the hugs, the laughs, the tears…lots of tears…It is amazing to me that Cody touched so many.  I am really sincerely touched.  I see the posts of Facebook from his friends, from my friends and from my family and the tears just flow.  He must be smiling every time he sees a post on Facebook with a picture of himself.  I know we have all learned from him and he continues to watch us all.
I know Cody was watching over Casey and made sure he stayed safe.  Tomorrow he comes home! He will help dry up some of my tears this sad Christmas.  We just need to be together.
Thank you all for being a part of my family.  Love you all!

Dec. 14, 2015

Today marks 7 years since Cody's diagnosis of leukemia.  Our lives changed forever that day.  I miss my son every second of every day.  This is tough week all around.  I miss him.
I am waiting very patiently to hear from Casey too.  I need to know this part of his journey is finished.  Only 6 more days until he is here.
I continue to pray for everyone and those special kids I have met along the way.  They are fighting so hard too.  It is so unfair.  Thank you all for your continued love and support and for not forgetting my boy.  xoxoxox