Happy 30th Birthday.

 I cannot wrap my head around this deep loss. How could my son be 30 and not be here? How can I not be planning his party? How can I not think about who he’d be? Where would he live? Would he be married? Kids? All of that was put to an abrupt stop Dec 18,2014. Life here on earth was over for my son. I miss him more than words. Tough day to say the least. Keep all the signs coming Cody. I need them. I might as everything about you. One day closer to seeing you again. Rest easy my boy. 

8 years….

 It has been 8 long years without my son. 8.  Just think about that. Today was tough. I try to do things to keep my son in Everyone’s mind. It’s easy for me..he never leaves it. I love and long for all the signs and I know he is with me. He would be an uncle now. I know he would love that role. I am sure Mia knows he is around. We miss and love you dearly, Cody. 

April 27, 2022

 My son would have been 29 today.  I cannot wrap my head around this.  His beautiful niece will never know her favorite uncle.  I know he would be her favorite.  Today I went to Lion Country Safari.  I took the boys there when they were little.  I know Cody always loved animals too.  This one ostrich was pecking on my window.  Go figure.  And tonight one of the pictures of Cody feel down.  I know he is near.  I feel it.  Thank you, Cody.  I love seeing how many people remember Cody and have stories to tell.  I miss him so much.  Happy heavenly birthday my son.  

7 YEARS WITHOUT MY SON

 December 18, 2021

7 years....I am not sure how that happened.  I do know that it is so hard without my son here.  There are so many life changes that I wish Cody experienced.  The first one is that he would be an uncle.  He would love that role.  I am thankful for my daughter in law for not forgetting him and teaching Mia about him.  They would have loved each other.  I know Cody would love Lisa too. I wish they could have met.  I know he would be so proud of Casey.  Not sure he would have liked me moving to Florida...he hated the heat and said everything was so slow here.  And it is.  I wonder where Cody would be and what he would be doing.  I have a feeling he would be with the Islanders in some kind of top management position.  He loved that team.  Life is just so hard when you think of those things.  I miss Cody each and every day.  I feel his presence and I know he is  guiding all of us.  

Today I volunteered at a new foundation for sick children. It was brunch with Santa and I helped the kids write letter to Santa.  I know if Cody was here he would have been right next to me.  It was a beautiful morning seeing some kids smile for the first time in a long time. 

Tonight I went to dinner with Roy and his girlfriend.  It was very nice.  Then we met Dad and Bonnie at the beach and tried to let a lantern go it.  I did not get the good ones so that did not work out too well but we managed to send one up.  Roy is great and I am lucky to have him.  

Good night everyone.  I hope I can sleep.  Casey, Lisa and Mia will be here in the morning!!!!

November 29, 2021 RIP Jazzy

 Today I had to make the decision to put Jazzy down.  She was with us for 14 of her 15 years.  I asked for a sign each night for a sign from Cody so I would know when  it was time.  Well, last night she could not settle at all and was crying.  Luckily the Humane Society here in Jupiter was able to get us in.  I know Cody is now reunited with her and Xena and Lily.  I miss you, Cody...Take care of your pets.   Love you, my son. 

 Happy 28th Birthday to my son.  Oh I wish you were here.  I feel like you are missing so much.  I know you are protecting that little niece of yours.  She would be your #1 fan! I miss you so much and always talk about you.  My friends and family are so good about listening to your stories that I share.I hope you are celebrating.  Love you lots!  Forever 21, Love Mom.

How can it be 6 years since I last felt my son's heartbeat? It just can't be this long.  It feels like yesterday and then again it feels like it has been a lifetime ago. I miss my son beyond words.  Thank goodness my granddaughter is here.  She makes me smile and I know she feels Cody.  There is a certain look she does that is just like Cody. Cody would be the best uncle, without a doubt.  It is so sad to me.  I hear about the COVID vaccine and how quickly they got that and I wonder why there is not a vaccine for cancer? Well my gut tells me it is out there but just not available. Life is so unfair that way. I miss my son and will continue to pray and look for the signs.  Tonight it was right in front of me...the car license plate said DET427 on it.  Thank you for that.  Love and miss you Cody.